And the blood test says…it’s over

The nurse called with my blood results from this morning. “Your beta was 5 so we consider that not pregnant – you don’t need to come for any more betas.” And with that call came the end of what has been the most emotional and heartbreaking 2 months of our life. Each day that passes brings new challenges but also gets a little easier. The tears still come easily, sometimes at the most unexpected times but they are less frequent. So now we move forward. We try again. Knowing more this time than last. Realizing that IVF is really a house of cards, one misstep and the it all comes crashing down.